Yeah I was. I’m not getting into why, that’s not relevant. But I do get angry, call it whatever you want. My feelings get hurt, more easily than I’d like.
Part of this comes from where I came from, and being who/what I am genetically. See I have a really really good adrenaline system, and when it sparks man… I can fly. Heh, when I get wound up I feel like I can take down the whole offensive line single handed. (Odd that I’ve never really gotten into a good brawl, but there it is).
This is a good thing from a survival base, but it’s also a bad thing on a social and personal (interpersonal?) level. That kind of short-wired thinking is the cause of many of the worst things many men (and women…) have done in their lives.
*discrete show of hands if you are in this camp…* * I am*
So here’s a video for y’all.
There you have it…
And today, I almost lashed out in anger, but after hitting the first send button, it asked if I was sure… and I said …
No. Hit delete and it’s gone…
This is a record for me. I intentionally asked myself what the hell was going on in my head, and why..
And without actually making any sense, I managed to go from screaming mad and seeing red targets on everything, to simply being frustrated at the situation and looking for a solution to it all.
I’m hoping this is the start of a new trend in my life, here’s to calm collected reasoning.
God Bless, and hang in there, we’re not making much sense right now but it’ll get better.